Nervousness, anxiousness, manic.

Where’s my Ativan? Did I take one already? can’t remember. Up until 4:00am 48hrs before Chemo round 5. I have so much to do. this monkey wrench (no sleep) doesn’t help. Kennedy has no clean whites, no food, need to go to Market, pay bills, Dogs need walk! and what the Phuck! ‘What about my Pedi?
Besos

Chemo round 4, 12 days post.

Well this crap is all over the place! Its like every other days is HELL! 12 days posts and still kicking my ass! I make myself walk and when I can’t Bruce or Niki walk me. Its all about creating new cells. The taste is grotesque, horrific. Stays in your system like throat and taste buds.
Love and Besos to all.
M

Chemo rd. 4 with complications

8 hours at city of Hope what was suppose to be 3. So many issues! most importantly is the enlarged Liver. some changes made to meds. and diet. Note: to everyone. Take your fish oil! Foods have to be cooked super Hot! no eating out, for fear of Bacteria Just don’t know who NOT washing there hands while preparing your food. specially at Buffets(which I don’t practice anyway) Grass fed beef always. Any bacteria can lead to Hepatitis. The good news my Heart is excellent. But, chemo/steroids has me living in a Vortex, maddening at times I want it to stop! Depression is over the top. : (
Sorry I couldn’t bring better news.
Besos to my Friends & Fam